As of right now I do.
And I feel I will go crazy if I don't choose to say the millions of thoughts running through my mind right now.
The last time I talked about this, was way dramatic and almost out of line. Now I am writing it not only hoping that God will speak to others and use me, but also that he will speak to me through my own submission in coming before him, even if it is public- in one way or another.
"false belief: if all of my desires are fulfilled, I will be happy. This is not true. In fact it is these very desires and attachments that make me tense, frustrated, nervous, insecure, and fearful... Deep down in my heart, I know that that even after I get those desires, I will not get happiness."
This, is something i want engraved into my mind so deeply, that I don't doubt it with one step of my journey for the rest of my days. In my mind
insert from my journal: Who is good? NO, not one. Who is there to cast a stone? No, not even one. God the righteous, his son, came to die a sinners death so that he might redeem us of our sins, so that he WOULD redeem us. So that he could live through us."
Why would he choose any of us? ANY. HE MADE HIM WHO KNEW NO SIN TO BE SIN SO THAT WE MIGHT BECOME THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD. 2COR5:21 we should be realizing that THIS is the only blessing we could ever need. We have life, and then he gives us the option to have it abundantly. The option, he doesn't force it, but oh he smiles when we accept it. accept and believe the words he speaks.
and my little peafart brain thinks
Life is of no more than this: that i might have this treasure in a jar of clay(being myself) myself is of no worth, but this treasure that God has given to all who love him and choose to follow( HIS SPIRIT) his beautiful spirit, inside of me. I AM OF NO VALUE OTHER THAN THIS SPIRIT IN ME.
He makes beauty rise from the ashes, and when you are weak, HE is strong.
go under his mercy.
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